I am spending some hours each day reading materials that I tend to find boring. This is due diligence to ensure I did not miss something in my research. At times I feel like this is an obligation. Sometimes I have resentments. Even so, it is possible to find joy in the effort of I just choose to do so. I wish I had a habit of first focusing on joy. Instead I work like this is an obligation, I chafe, I resent, and only then do I stop and examine myself. There is joy if I choose to accept it.